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Dreams, Revisited

Since I was sixteen, my mantra has been “no regrets”. In other words, when I near the end of my life I want to be able to say that I have no regrets for the way I lived. When I was 16 a friend of mine died in a mountain climbing accident. At the time I had recently given birth to my first son. I was still in high school. That was my first wake up call. Life is short! I HAD to live it to it’s fullest! What if I died tomorrow?

I had a few years of floundering around, married the father of my son, joined the military, had a couple more sons, and started my first art business. Not long after my divorce from the father of my sons, I discovered that I was in love with my best friend. We moved in together and married 1 1/2 years later. We had a lovely little family, my new husband was content to help me raise my boys since I could no longer have babies. Basically, I have lived and continue to live my happily ever after. Fast forward 15 years, my youngest son has moved out of the house and we now have an EMPTY nest! When I was young I sacrificed some of my dreams in order to be the best mom I could be. Always with the thought that we would have an empty nest around the time I was 42, leaving plenty of life left to live out those long forgotten dreams.

For a few months, I have floundered around, yet again. Wondering what was next? I still love being an artist and have many plans and goals yet to achieve. Regrets? I still have none. My life isn’t over YET, after all. I’ve been revisiting some of the dreams I had way back when I was fifteen years old, before I became a young mother. One of them was to be a singer/performer/actress. It just so happens that I am married to not only my best friend, but a highly talented musician. We had tried to work together on a music project back at the beginning of our relationship. Before my husband earned his bachelors of music, before he had the patience and knowledge to help me find my voice. We had one gig back then. I SUCKED! I was so nervous, my voice never really came out, it just wavered and trembled and I was so embarrassed that I gave up on the dream. I went back to my art, my comfort zone.

Back to the future and 2008. April 2008 to be exact. My dad passed away unexpectedly and my brother (who is also a professional musician), husband and I decided we would play a couple of my dad’s favorite songs at his memorial services. The idea was reborn then. A folk trio playing all the old folk music my brother and I grew up listening to in my dad’s record room. Yes, my dad had a record ROOM. He had a record collection of over 40,000 records(which I now have). Yet another reason why my brother and I always loved music. We used to sing songs together as kids and even made it on the radio once! On our dad’s Oldies radio show. 🙂

When dad died, it seemed perfect that we would put together an act in remembrance of him. So, for the last 4 1/2 years we’ve done nothing but talk about it. We always sing songs around the campfire when we take our yearly “memorial dad” camping trip.

This year, finally, now that we have so much extra time on our hands, Aaron and I started practicing folk songs together. We told my brother about it and now we are working on putting our folk trio together. We spent 4 evenings in July practicing before, during and after our yearly camping trip. We have practiced since then separately, and together (via recordings and email).

This Thursday is the moment we’ve been practicing for! It’s our first gig! We live 3 hours away from my brother, but we will be driving down to play and also, spend some time in his recording studio making demos of the music we have down so far. If you happen to be in or around Las Cruces, NM this Thursday, stop by Uno’s between 6:30 – 9:30pm and have a listen! I promise my confidence in my singing has improved. I am SURE it will be a good show this time around! I promise to share some photos and possibly video when I get home! 🙂

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Following Your Dreams! (my story)

“Follow your heart

where ever it takes you

and be happy

Life is brief and very fragile

and only loaned to us for a while

Wake up every morning

with the thought

that something wonderful

is about to happen!

~ author unknown

I have my parents and grandparents to thank for always encouraging me to follow my dreams. I knew I wanted to be an artist from the age of 13. Though they asked once or twice, “how are you going to support yourself”, they never doubted that I could or WOULD do it! Now I realize, not everyone is that blessed! I also had plenty of other people (step father, in laws, friends, teachers) telling me I was crazy to go for a career as an artist.”Why not just wait until you retire to pursue your art?” “You can always do your art as a hobby”, “you should have something to fall back on” etc etc. Every time I heard something like this it just drove me more, motivated me to “prove them all wrong”. That’s me, always been a bit hard headed, stubborn, ready to take on a dare!

I have always felt an inner drive to be an artist, like it was something within me that I could not deny. No matter how hard I tried to “grow up” and do all the things people told me I “should”. Like “get a real job”, or “go to college for something practical”. As I got older I learned some valuable lessons on listening to others instead of following my heart. My heart knew all along what I was “supposed” to be doing.

After going to college so I could “have a career” as a Computer Aided Drafter, I worked in the field for almost 3 years. Though I had a great salary, benefits and a regular business work schedule, I was completely miserable! I had nightmares almost nightly about dying, being chased and shot down, falling off cliffs, etc. I had all but given up my art after spending five years selling my prints all over the world. I finally checked out a book on dreams and interpreted my dreams as a sign that I was killing my soul, I was on the wrong path, I wasn’t living my dreams in my waking life, so I was dying in my sleep every night. That was when I decided I needed to get back to my purpose in life, back to following my dreams! I walked out of my job one day and never went back, literally! I just told my boss I wasn’t feeling well and left! I later sent him an email telling him I wouldn’t be coming back. He was very understanding and told me that my job would be there if I ever wanted to come back. That was over 11 years ago!

After my dad passed away in April 2008, I started reading books on spirituality, the law of attraction, love, awareness, etc. I have discovered since then, for me anyway, life is all about following dreams, following your heart and living life on purpose. God/Universe/Divine, whatever you call your higher power, gave me these gifts to SHARE! My purpose is to use the gifts I was given, they were given for a reason. What better way to show gratitude for those gifts?

I truly believe EVERYONE has a purpose! Everyone has a reason for living, a gift to share! The pure joy of this thought is the fact that we all have different purposes, we all have different dreams, like no two people are alike, no two dreams are alike. Your inner self KNOWS your purpose all you have to do is LISTEN! I would like to be one of the people who encourages you to “Follow your dreams”! If I can do it, anyone can!

“The only thing that will stop you from fulfilling your dreams is you” ~ Tom Bradley

“Keep your dreams alive. Understand to achieve anything requires faith and belief in yourself, vision, hard work, determination, and dedication. Remember all things are possible for those who believe.” ~Gail Devers