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Procrastination, my biggest fear

Work in progress, started this morning, 12x12" oil on canvas

Work in progress, started this morning, 12×12″ oil on canvas

I have always been a procrastinator. I’ve always blamed perfectionism. In truth, it’s fear. Fear of failure? Fear of success? I wish I knew, probably a bit of both. I have overcome a lot of fear in the 26 years I’ve been working as an artist. It’s still there. Clinging on for dear life. I’m aware of it, it’s always been there. Mocking me, telling me I’m not good enough to overcome it. Some days, I feel really brave. It’s easy to feel brave sitting here in my studio. I have WORK to do! I NEED to paint, right? I NEED to write another blog post, right? I NEED to work on updating my Etsy shop or my website, right? Of course I do, but I use these excuses as reasons not to get out in the world and share my art. I use these excuses to save myself from rejection. Nobody likes rejection. It’s not easy to hear NO when you are putting your heart and soul out there.

That all said, I have come to the point in my life where I have to either overcome my fear or give up trying. I’m starting to see why there are fewer and fewer artist peers as I get older. It’s not easy to keep getting back up after a rejection or a perceived failure. Truth is, it’s the ONLY way to succeed. Keep getting back up, dusting myself off and try again, and again. I have to talk myself into it some days. Today has been one of those days. I came into the studio this morning excited and ready to GO! As the day wears on, the energy wanes. I have a whole list of excuses by now. I have so many other things I COULD be doing right now.

I once read a book called “Art and Fear”. I highly recommend it. In fact, I think it’s time for a re-read. Time to get motivated and get out there!

Winding down the year

photo of me and Aaron

It’s nearly impossible to get a serious photo taken with my husband!

I promise to be better about posting next year! (lol, sure, Paula, sure!) Seriously though, my show opened at the Fuller Lodge Art Center on Saturday, December 6th. I should have been here last week, posting about the opening and how much fun we had…., but I spent last week with the “after show funk”. For those of you who don’t know this phenomena, this is what happens after an artist has worked for months to put a show together, had fun at the opening and then wakes up on Monday morning with the thought, “now what?”

Silly guy!

Silly guy!

The opening went well and though I didn’t have any sales the night of, I’m confident that sales will occur in the weeks between the opening and closing of the show. πŸ™‚ Tomorrow morning I will be interviewed by the local Los Alamos radio station on their weekly arts show. πŸ™‚

At least now you can see him! ;)

At least now you can see him! πŸ˜‰

I brought my husband and our band mate, Ray, to the opening and we had fun performing a few of our songs. We, I mean “I”, sang Christmas carols with the daughter of the Director of the gallery. (The guys DON’T sing Christmas songs!) So much fun helping to inspire a young aspiring singer! πŸ™‚ She was so awesome, even if she was very nervous about singing in front of people.

Finally! A decent photo, ok, well, maybe not. ;-)

Finally! A decent photo, ok, well, maybe not. πŸ˜‰

We stopped in Santa Fe on the way home to have dinner and ended up waiting longer than it would have taken us to just drive home and make dinner. I guess that’s what we get for eating out in Santa Fe on a Saturday night without reservations. Lesson learned! The food was delicious though and it was nice to not have to cook for a change.

peace and flowers oil painting

Almost finished with this one! 10 x 10″ oil on canvas

I’ve been back in the studio again since Thursday, it took a few days to shake off the funk! So, here’s a couple WIP photos for you. Next show has been scheduled for here in Albuquerque in February. I will have more details coming soon!

hands and flowers original oil painting

WIP, detail, 8 x 12″ oil on canvas