I’m caught in a catch 22 at the moment. I’ve been feeling down this week, mainly because I haven’t painted in over a month. But I haven’t painted in over a month, partially because I’ve been feeling down. In reality, I stopped painting because it was the Holidays. I always take a couple of weeks off around the holidays. My husband is a teacher and he gets a Christmas break, so of course, I take time off when he gets time off. This year, I just didn’t have the motivation and excitement for getting back to work in the studio.
I believe I started feeling down a couple of days after Christmas. All three of our sons, with families, made it to our house for a couple days. Christmas Eve, Christmas day and the day after Christmas. It was a wonderful visit, truly one of my favorite Christmases in over a decade. Probably since my dad passed away in 2008.
I guess it was the let down after everyone went home. I was happy to have the house back to it’s quiet, peaceful place, but that empty nest feeling was there too. I miss my kids.
Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE that we moved 3 1/2 hours away from the kids. I love that we have OUR time now. It’s almost like a hormonal thing that I have no control over? Maybe that’s a real thing? I don’t know, what I do know is, I’m a walking contradiction right now! lol!
While I get past it, I will be gentle with myself. If I only get in 30 minutes of painting a day for a little while, that’s ok! I’ve been working on all the mindless, mind numbing, business stuff for now. I’m also working on putting together a portfolio of my photography. I know the obsessive urge to paint will return, it always does!
work in progress, 36 x 36″ oil painting on canvas, this is a center close up.
I haven’t painted in a couple of weeks. I took the week of Thanksgiving off from the studio, since it’s a vacation week for my husband. The beginning of this week was spent working on boring business stuff. Somebody’s gotta do it! This is a one woman operation, so I guess it’s me!
Detail of the layering
I started the current work in progress weeks ago. It’s always difficult to jump back into a painting in progress after a break. I forget where I left off, or what brush I used for a certain section. It’s mostly a mental psych out. I overthink it every time! This afternoon was the perfect time to jump in.
Progress pic during the layering process, darker blue was painted first, with light blue layered over the top
I’m working on the blue parts today. Layering with a darker blue and then a lighter blue on top. Layering gives the paint more depth and makes the blue part stand out a bit more. I’m pretty sure there will be more layers added. The blue in the original inspiration photo is very bright, it should be, there are stars in there! Not easy to recreate with paint! I’m using Cerulean Blue mixed with some Naples Yellow, but I may have to search out a brighter blue in the end. So far though? I’m liking the effect.
Another detail of layering
Tomorrow the temps are supposed to drop with a chance of rain in the forecast. Aaron and I will be working on finishing up the insulation in my studio. Hopefully, I will be able to work in the studio next week. The wood burning stove in my studio does a pretty good job of heating the building, but 1,000 square feet of space takes a while to heat! I’ve found that it heats up fine as long as the outside temps are over 50. Forecast is calling for 40s all next week, so we shall see if the insulation is doing it’s job! One of these days I will get a more reliable source of heat, but that will take more cash. Plus, we still have to insulated the ceiling, so….. Not going for sympathy here, I chose to be here. I LOVE my studio, but it sure will be nice when it’s all finished!
This year has been a year of new beginnings for me. We made a major move to another town, in another part of New Mexico. Selling one house and buying another, I’ve never experienced such anxiety driven stress! Needless to say, my energy has been very intense this year!
I’ve said it here before, and I will say it again, art is my therapy. I was diagnosed with PTSD in February and started seeing a counselor at the VA in Albuquerque. At first I was happy with the treatment I was getting, but it quickly went south when I found out it would be difficult to get treatment in our new town. After months of back and forth with the VA, I was finally connected with a counselor in Silver City at the end of May. I have since switched to private insurance after being completely frustrated with the VA system.
When we finally moved in to our new house in April, we didn’t actually close until the end of June, I was extremely frazzled. While I was grateful we were able to move in, there was still much anxiety about whether the sale would go through.
Once we unpacked, I bought a box of 20 12×12″ canvas and got back to painting! I decided to use these canvases for exploring and possibly changing my painting style. Whatever happened, I was going to paint and calm my frazzled nerves. Painting is a meditation for me, it helps center me in a sea of peace.
“Feminine Energy”, 12×12” oil on canvas, Energy Series, SOLD! ❤️
I’m always amazed at the work that comes out of me when I’m particularly stressed. Some of my most popular images came to me during my most stressed days. Letting go and letting the painting tell me where it wanted to go. I was shooting for making my style a bit more loose. This is where the Energy Series began!
“Shine”, 12×12” oil on canvas, Energy Series, this one was given away to one of my lucky email subscribers! ❤️
My idea was to express the energy I put into my paintings in a more direct way. In a physically visual way. All of my art has an intention of love, joy, peace and other positive energies painted into it, but this is the first time I’ve attempted to make it more real. The wavy brushstrokes signify the energy. The colors represent different kinds of energy or intensity of the energy. Blue and green are peaceful, while red and yellow are joyful and purple and pink show love.
The paintings shown in this post are the first six in the series, stay tuned for more to come! Click on any of the images above to go to my website.
Work in progress, second in my Space series, 36×36″
I’m so excited about my current work in progress! I’m painting big for the first time in over a year! Last time was murals, this time I’m back to canvas. I have 3 36×36″ canvases ready to go. This first painting is the second in my Space Series. This new series is inspired by the Hubble Telescope images of far away galaxies.
The first painting in the series wasn’t intended to be a “space” painting, but when I shared it on social media an artist friend noted that it reminded her of the Hubble images. I totally agreed and set out to create a new series! There are literally hundreds of images to choose from.
Detail of inner spiral
This current WIP was inspired by spiral galaxy, NGC 6753. Now, when I say inspired by, I mean the painting has the general idea of the photograph within it. It’s not an exact copy, but the idea behind the painting started with the photo. The most difficult part of the doing this series, is deciding which images to use. I could go on forever!
Detail of outer spiral
The Holidays are coming up soon! Just a heads up, I will have a special deal for my email subscribers on Black Friday. Make sure you go to my Website and sign up on my email list to get more information, coming soon!
May all of my American friends and followers have a blessed Thanksgiving. My prayers are with the Native Americans currently protecting our water at Standing Rock. They are in my thoughts this day and everyday. ❤
I’m currently working on the second half of my 1995 Art Story, until it’s finished, here is a great post I found by an anonymous writer about the symptoms of inner peace. Very contagious condition, PLEASE PASS IT ON!
SYMPTOMS OF INNER PEACE
Watch for signs of Peace. The hearts of a great many have already been exposed to it and it seems likely that we could find our society experiencing it in epidemic proportions. Some signs and symptoms of inner peace:
1. Tendency to think and act spontaneously, rather than from fear.
2. An unmistakable ability to enjoy each moment.
3. Loss of interest in judging other people.
4. Loss of interest in judging self.
5. Loss of interest in interpreting the actions of others.
6. Loss of interest in conflict.
7. Loss of ability to worry (a very serious symptom).
8. Frequent, overwhelming episodes of appreciation.