Back to my studio today after working all weekend and taking Mon/Tues off instead. Attempted working on my self portrait, deadline is coming up soon.
So much hate, fear , disaster, death, anger, murder etc in the world. I am a highly sensitive person. I feel the emotions of the collective consciousness all around me.
We are all in despair.
Why are humans such a hateful race? I’m so directionless right now. I don’t know what to do, or say. It’s just depressing.
I have tried for years to spread love with my art. Painting the feelings of love the only way I know how. It’s what I know, what I can do now.
I am conscious of the way I treat other people. I smile at everyone I pass on the street.
I don’t understand why people are so quick to defend their right to own guns, when their is so much death and despair all around them. Defending a piece of paper written almost 200 years ago. Do those people want to be happy too?
Random thoughts going through my mind today. I can’t make sense of anything, so why try? I’m not personally depressed, but I can feel the heavy weight of sadness blanketing the planet.
Mother Earth is sad too. No, she’s angry. She’s tired of the abuse, tired of the sadness. She knows the cause of her pain, it’s US. HUMANS.
It’s very difficult for me to continue as an artist at times like this. I feel like nothing I do contributes to the betterment of society. Painting is more than therapeutic for me, but how does it help others? My hope is that people look at my work and FEEL THE LOVE.
I don’t know what else to do.
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This past week has been a rough one. It started out on a high note on Tuesday with negotiations for a contract with a management company that wants to represent my art and publish my Paula Beck Prints book. I’m still negotiating, but that had to be put on hold Wednesday afternoon.
An uncle of Aaron’s was in a horrific motorcycle accident and we got the call around 2:00 Wednesday. You may have heard about it on the local news. A truck was going the wrong way down I-25 and hit him head on. The doctors didn’t think he would make it past Wednesday night, but he did. He’s a fighter and he’s still fighting everyday to stay alive. Needless to say, we have dropped everything this past week to be at the hospital with him and other family members. It’s times like this that put everything into perspective. Life is so precious and we take it for granted so often. I’ve had these moments in life before and I always say I will never take another day of my life for granted.
Not always easy when you get back into the swing of everyday life. Let this serve as a reminder, hug your loved ones every chance you get and never let a day go by without telling them you love them. There is so much pettiness and unnecessary drama in our day to day lives, I’m guilty of it too. I’m still a work in progress, but I will work everyday to not sweat the small stuff. As they say, it’s ALL small stuff.
I’m still finding it hard to concentrate on anything I need to work on or get done, but I had to try today. I’m trying my best to be a strong shoulder of support for my husband and his family, after all, they are my family too. Please send prayers and positive energy for healing. It’s going to be a long road to recovery, and we are just taking it one day at a time for now.
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Aaron and I took Friday and Monday off to make this past weekend a long one. I guess I should say we took the days off from our studios. We worked our butts off at the house! We are currently getting our house ready to sell. This past weekend was focused on yard work and filling a big hole in the back yard where our root cellar used to be. Hauling wheelbarrows full of dirt from the front yard to the back corner of the back yard was exhausting! We moved just over a ton of dirt on Saturday morning. Plus I weeded the front yard while Aaron was picking up the load of dirt. These things used to be so much easier in our younger years! We spent yesterday taking the poor neglected puppies for a hike in the Sandias. It was a good 3 hour hike!
So, back to my regularly scheduled blog post! Thursday afternoon I finished the painting I posted about in my last post. “Shining Your Light” is about lighting up yours and others lives with your own inner light. We all have it, that inner light that shines through us when we smile or show love to someone. There may be turmoil in our lives, but if we can remember to shine our light, the turmoil will subside and the joy will shine through!
“Awakening”, 48 x 48″ oil painting on canvas, Artist’s collection
This little painting was inspired by a large painting I did many years ago. “Awakening” hangs on the wall in my bedroom. It’s the first thing I see every morning when I wake up. It’s a 48 x 48″ painting that will most likely never be sold. It will stay a part of my own personal collection.
The reason? I painted this painting at a very difficult time in my life, yet at the same time, it was a time of huge growth and discovery for me. It was almost a year after my dad passed away, 2009. At the time I painted it I was reading Eckhart Tolle’s book, A New Earth. In the book he talks about “awakening”. Which is where the title of this painting came from. I’ve since read it a couple more times. It’s one of those deeply spiritual books that I like to read over and over because of it’s truth. Awakening is basically when you get to that point in life where you realized you are a spiritual being having a human experience and not the other way around.
My dad’s death was the catalyst for my own awakening. I finally KNEW deep down inside that there IS something after death. Death is not the end of our spirit, it is the end of our physical body’s existence here in the physical plane.
Last week, I woke up and looked at “Awakening” and realized how far I have come since I painted it and how much my art has changed. I felt that I hadn’t completely explored the ideas in this painting and I needed to revisit them again. Not always easy to do 7 years later, but beneficial just the same. I may just stay on this narrow, winding path for a few more paintings. Who knows what will come of it! Stay tuned…
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I worked on her for a few days, but she is finally done! My first Love doll made with my own custom art fabric. Daisy Sunshine was made using my Yellow Daisy fabric design.
She is just as I imagined her, I hope you love her too!
Daisy Sunshine Hippie Love Doll 🙂
My next creativity project will be another painting! I must admit, I’ve missed my daily painting sessions. I also need to make more dolls, they are much more popular than I thought they could be. I’m so grateful to all the people who have adopted my sweet babies! It’s time for some new fabric designs as well. I have so much work to do, I guess I’d better get to it! Have a fantastic rest of your day! Please subscribe to my blog up in the upper right corner. Thank you! 🙂
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Pile of pillows currently in my studio and available for purchase!
Do you love soft things like I do? Then I have a sweet art pillow you may LOVE! I finished up a new heart pillow yesterday. It has stripes of green, yellow and red on one side and my daisy art fabric on the other side.
I really LOVE making these sweetheart pillows! They are the perfect size to take with you when traveling by car, bus, train or airplane. They make a great neck pillow! Plus, with a neck pillow like this, you will be the envy of your fellow travelers! Just fit the crook of the heart on the back of your neck. Perfect fit.
As with ALL of my pillow designs, you can have a custom pillow made, choosing your own favorite fabrics and colors. Contact me directly at email@example.com for more information. Don’t forget, I also make “Memorial pillows” to help you remember your lost loved ones, using a favorite shirt or any piece of clothing.
I’m working on releasing some other fabric designs very soon. If you have any thoughts on any of my images you would love to see in fabric form, please let me know! I’m open to suggestions.
Next up, more peace sign pillows! Stay tuned or better yet, subscribe to my blog in the upper right hand corner of this page for automatic updates. Thank you so much for visiting my blog today! Have a glorious, love filled day!
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Even self employed artists have days like this. Nothing to do with my work, it’s a personal family thing. Even so, we all have days when we feel like we should have just stayed in bed. That’s how this day started. It’s all come out for the best in the end, as it usually does, but not before this day became one of those days.
I have a recent goal to blog every weekday. Days like today usually play havoc with goals like that. However, I am determined to see this goal through at LEAST a month before I take a day off. Really, I don’t want to take any day off. Hence, I sit here writing this right now.
I’m one of those people who beats themselves up if I don’t reach my goals. I know it’s silly, considering how many of my goals and dreams I’ve actually reached! I guess it’s my drive and self abuse that has brought me here. Though I know this, it’s still a struggle to give myself a break every once in a while.
Yesterday, I was all about getting my work done! I even went to a networking luncheon for two hours. Today, I was lucky I made it to the post office. There is also band practice this evening.
Since I don’t have any new photos to share with you all, I will share something from the catalog. This is one of my favorites, painted in 2015. This original painting is still available in my Etsy shop. The photo and caption are linked to the listing as well. “Radiate Love” reminds me to keep the love light shining no matter what happens in day to day life. Don’t sweat the small stuff as they say, because it’s all small stuff.
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The “girls”, though we are NOT gender biased here, they can also be long haired boys or transgender dolls.
My Etsy shop is now stocked with my new “Love” ragdolls. These cute little dolls have been so much fun to make, I must admit I hug them regularly! I have to! I named them “Love” dolls for a reason. They are given tons of love before they are sent out to their new mommies and daddies, where they will give love for years and years to come.
The “boys” and bald babies, like the “girls” there is no gender bias here, they can be whatever YOU want them to be.
They are made with multicolored fabrics and yarns to represent all the ethnicities of the world. Their bright colors are meant to make them happy, loving dolls. They all have a cute little smile on their faces and an embroidered heart on their chest.
I realized yesterday that I made my “love” dolls just in time for Valentine’s Day. What girl or lady wouldn’t want a cute, hugable Love doll from their Valentine? I would! 😉
I am also offering a custom, “memorial” doll. What exactly is a memorial doll you ask? A memorial doll is made in memory of a deceased loved one, using a piece of clothing that belonged to the loved one. It is an upcycled doll that will keep giving love long after a loved one is gone. The doll can be made with the same hair color and eye color as your loved one and will also have the person’s name embroidered within the heart on the chest. These are special order dolls, so contact me directly if you are interested and we can work out the logistics, ie sending me the item of clothing and determining custom elements for the doll.
I am also happy to make regular custom dolls with specific colors. These dolls are selling quick! Get yours while you can! Thank you! 🙂
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