I’m caught in a catch 22 at the moment. I’ve been feeling down this week, mainly because I haven’t painted in over a month. But I haven’t painted in over a month, partially because I’ve been feeling down. In reality, I stopped painting because it was the Holidays. I always take a couple of weeks off around the holidays. My husband is a teacher and he gets a Christmas break, so of course, I take time off when he gets time off. This year, I just didn’t have the motivation and excitement for getting back to work in the studio.
I believe I started feeling down a couple of days after Christmas. All three of our sons, with families, made it to our house for a couple days. Christmas Eve, Christmas day and the day after Christmas. It was a wonderful visit, truly one of my favorite Christmases in over a decade. Probably since my dad passed away in 2008.
I guess it was the let down after everyone went home. I was happy to have the house back to it’s quiet, peaceful place, but that empty nest feeling was there too. I miss my kids.
Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE that we moved 3 1/2 hours away from the kids. I love that we have OUR time now. It’s almost like a hormonal thing that I have no control over? Maybe that’s a real thing? I don’t know, what I do know is, I’m a walking contradiction right now! lol!
While I get past it, I will be gentle with myself. If I only get in 30 minutes of painting a day for a little while, that’s ok! I’ve been working on all the mindless, mind numbing, business stuff for now. I’m also working on putting together a portfolio of my photography. I know the obsessive urge to paint will return, it always does!