I’m on day 6 of my self imposed solitude. I have to keep reminding myself why I’m doing this. I have never, up until now, had more than a moment to myself. I thought I needed it, I thought it was something everyone should have at some point in their lives. I think too much. I am homesick and missing my sweetie and yes, even the boys! Peace and quiet is overrated. I have talked to Aaron on the phone everyday, unfortunately, I believe that may be part of the problem. Every time I talk with him I get off the phone and just want to pack everything up and go home. I miss him so much my heart aches. For those of you who don’t know me personally or the story of my relationship with Aaron, in the 15 years we have been together, we have spent maybe 8 days apart. Make that 14, now. Not only do we live together, but we work together, we spend almost all of our time together, usually. This has been the longest 5 days of my life!
I have certain things I wanted to accomplish while here. I have a painting commission that I am almost done with. Check! I am also working on my book and had hoped to finish a rough rough draft while here. Not even close there. I know, you’re thinking, “so why are you online and writing on your blog instead of working?” Because, I am trying to convince myself that it would be ok for me to leave early. I can do this work at my home studio can’t I? I guess I’m looking for some validation. I have already decided this morning that I am going to push my departure date up from the 31st to this Friday, the 28th. 10 days should be enough.
The good thing about this trip is that I have realized how much I take for granted. I am blessed with a loving, wonderful husband who supports everything I do. I am blessed with 3 sons who always call me and ask for my help. So, why did I feel it necessary to get away from all that? I guess it was necessary for me to see all the blessings I take for granted. I have learned that lesson, now, can I go home? We shall see how this day plays out, I may just pack up and go home tomorrow!